LOVE WE CAN TRUST

Lamentations 3:22-26

'Because of God's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new evry morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, "The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for Him." It is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD'

Thank you Jesus that we can have a new hope in you despite all the happenings. You bring us a fresh start every morning and letting us know that today will never be like tomorrow because we can expect new things from you. Your promise to never forsake us gives us the best assurance to life situations that we should always look  to you despite our circumstances.

Dear Jesus,

I am very stressed :( Only because i keep thinking i am dumb and cannot make it. Sometimes i feel high, but sometimes i feel low. Is there ever any remedy in this feeling i feel? I know there is, because there is You! A feeling ma pass to yesterday but new feelings grow today. And when we choose to thing about the grace that you give so free, we will only reap happy feelings and feel the sense of gratitude towards your never ending and never failing love. Can i really do this? i don't know. But God,  I REALLY WANT TO DO WELL.

 Really!!!! This is a chance i have given myself two years before i stepped in here and i hope i can fulfill it. I have fallen so badly i chose to pick up again with your strength on me and the help you gave to me. Please please please Father, help me please. i do not want to feel fear but i know that as long i have you. There will be grace and mercy so free :) its not because of the fame i will get God. Not to prove anything. But i really want to achieve something for myself. I am not sure if its selfish or not. But i pray You will hear my cry and don't turn away from me. Its only you i seek. Help me LORD, and help those around me. Thank you forgiving my of my sins as i repent  and may a new day bring new hope in you. 

Because God's Love never fails.

O Love that wilt not let me go

I rest my weary soul in thee;

I give Thee back my life I owe,

That in Thine ocean depths its flow

May richer, fuller be

- Matheson

All you need to know to be content is this; GOD IS GOOD

I AM BACK.
So this week has really been good to me in a way i was able to stay at home to study and all. Helped me slowed down in life a little. Well, i have been on the computer a few days now, trying to type out some paragraphs for gp, turns out to be really interesting! That is why i am here :)
2 MORE WEEKENDS TO A LEVELS~~~
Got to really raise the bar and start working like there is no tomorrow.
However, I've got to admit i have been neglecting Jesus in my life. How can i forget the goodness He has done for me. this week has been really good and its all thank to you Jesus!! THANK YOU GOD!!
My prayer for today is that for the next week i will draw closer to  you spiritually and spend more time with you. i wasted too much time on videos, i admit. SORRYYYYYYY =(
GIVE ME STRENGTH THIS WEEK ALMIGHTY ONE, THAT I MAY STAND STRING A MIDST THE HARDSHIPS SO THAT YOUR GRACE MAY BE GLORIFIED AT THE END OF THE DAY

"Harvest Day"- October 21st
This message about the basic principle of 'you reap what you sow'. however i have gained a new perspective to it. The question asks, "If He asked us to gather up the yield of our everyday choices over the past year. what would we have to show Him?"
My answer is, "nothing"- I guess this tells me i haven't been exactly doing enough for Jesus. i haven't successfully brought a soul into His Kingdom to be saved by His grace, the same one i experienced. Am i so selfish? The Nature of Sin- SELFISHNESS. Am i just not ready, or i don;t want to be ready? Hmmm, that's a question i have to ask myself. I believe growing in Christ is not only an intentional effort to read His words and follow His commandments. But it is also to be intentional to do His work and seek Salvation in others as well as the Sanctification of ourselves. Knowing that there are things i have to give up to pursue that Desire for God, am I willing to? As of now, i admit. I haven't been able to put it all down and say 'I am ready'.

Things of the world often pull at my heart,
But, Lord, help me see the end from the start;
Open my eyes to where my life's going,
What I will reap from all I've been sowing.- K. De Haan

Galatians 5;19-21
'The acts of the flesh are obvious; sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft' hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as i did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God'

It is actually very shocking to me that this is the case. Shows me how serious there offences are. But everyday, i do these. Hoe shameful of me. How am i supposed to approach God? And i am still living? It's a miracle i think. I mean if God has the ability to strike me dead, why hasn't He? And how can i bring myself to sin against Him despite knowing all that He as been through for His life is taking up our sins and turning it into love? I''m sorry Jesus for sinning against you. Help me not to sow discord towards my sister as it will only breed sin-envy and jealousy with many more after that. You have to help me to release all this n a form of unhurting way so that i may be able to reconcile both of us in the Name of Christ. Please Lord, I beg you to show me the way. NO MORE will i continue sowing discord I have sinned greatly and i ask you forgive me and remove all the bad feelings inside of me. I am sincere if you can fill me heart. Change me to something new, mold me and fill me with your love once again. I know it is never ending. Thank you Father for you have never forsaken me.

I am just waiting for you to show up in my life. Even if you seem distant, i believe all it takes is for me to walk towards you to close up that gap. Wait for me Daddy God!!! =)

Turn not aside, discouraged one;
Stir up your gift, pursue your goal;
In God's own time you'll see Him work;
He'll give you hope and lift your soul- D. D Haan

This gives me comfort in knowing God is there. Although i face the trouble of whether i can make it or not due to my results, i still want to really trust in God. Sometimes its really hard to believe without actually doing anything, you may just succeed. Get what i mean? like, you didn't study as hard, so you won't get anywhere. Makes me feel all demoralized. But then again, it is the same feeling that drives the motivation in me. I WILL NOT GIVE UP at thus  point. All i can do now is try my very best to study and then yes, when i say i will leave the rest to God , i will. And whatever the outcome maybe, i will just go on from there. Ready to receive and accept all there is to my life down the road ahead of me. God wont leave me in a lurch. I know i will have somewhere to go. Because i haven't fulfilled my purpose in life yet, the will that God has for, the reason i am still breathing on this Earth. So i pray God, show me my purpose. Is it cause you do not like someone with no goals? Or was no goals meant for you to do a work in me? Can ordinary people actually strive to become something? But ordinary is the extraordinary in Christ. Many people like Heidi baker were called down from their high positions to serve you then will you use me in the same way? I may not be able to achieve great things. but i aspire to, and i must admit that it is cause of the fame. Maybe that's the reason why i am not ready. When i am able to stop feeding my flesh of its hunger for fame and wealth, only then i will be ready. I want to start doing so and grow in your word so it will be easier along the way. Help me O' God. I know now i just have to study hard and really aim to achieve something i want to do, for the furtherance of  your kingdom. I do not want church to be somewhere i can go and play with. But i want to move into a higher level of understanding and closeness with you! To inspire people of God's love and shine in the darkness, lighting the way to Christ and  God. When will that time be? I don't know, but i know it'll come when unexpected. So i must be ready!! What matters most is I know, you will come Because You promised so =)

Thank you that i have always someone to turn to despite all my troubles. Allowing me to be my cheerful self always. I think its a blessing to express myself, the way i feel. So help me to treasure this gift. And also the way of writing so that i may glorify you in that time that comes.

When the world around you is crumbling, GOD is the Rock on which you can stand.

HIIIIIIII.

I AM BACK AFTER WHO KNOWS WHO LONGGGGGG.

And guess what i am feeling good :)

Many months have passed and i have learnt a lot in the process. 

How i wished i can turn back time but i know i cant, nevertheless. I am glad i am able to earn something so vivid that i will never have the same perspective again!

All i want to say is i THANK GOD! For never forsaking me in times of stress and trouble and never leaving me in thee lurch when help was desperately needed. So now officially i am changed! FOR JESUS. And from this day, i pray i will only seek to do His will and never letting anything else come in between God's love for me and those i love around me. Jesus you see this? I LOVE YOU VERY  MUCH AND AM  THANKFUL FOR ALL YOU HAVE DONE IN ME.

Sooooooo, Its October the 14th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Officially another 3 weekends to A levels. time flew and i must say i only start to treasure school life now since everything has passed. I have basically lived these 2 years of my life with too much drama on the non-academic side. Pssssh~~

But the reason why i chose to come back is because its a Sunday morning! AND I AM NOT IN CHURCH :( For some reason i think i need to come and talk to God since i have been drifting in my opinion. I NEED TO FIND JESUS, WHERE ARE YOU. 

Anyway, back t my motive. i am here because i wished to talk about what i read in the daily bread today!

So the it quotes, "Whoever hears these sayings of Mine,and does them, i will liken him to a wise man who built his house on a rock"- Matthew 7:24

It talks about the importance of building our lives on the solid foundation of Obeying His Word. David McCasland says that 'Hearing God's Words is essential, but doing what He says is the key to weathering the storms in our lives. It's never too late to start building on THE ROCK'

THIS IS SO TRUE. I believe building our purpose on solid foundation like God's Word will never go wrong. In a sense sometimes we need to do things we might not like or favor  to the extent dislike, but we know it will benefit us in the ling run so we do so. i think its very important cause we really need these teachings to help us overcome circumstances in our lives. 'The Rock' represents something that will never falter in times of calamities in life situations. Well. of course everybody yearns to have that, passing of with Words of their own 'wisdom'. but at the end of the day, if i do a self reflection, only  those who truly choose to put your everything in building your foundation is Jesus, i say you will fall but always have the courage to return to your feet because God is always supporting you in all aspects you can never imagine. He cares about the little things we do! I admit that i am no where near that point, but my prayer is that one day i will reach that summit so that i know God is my God. He is real and worthy of only of praises and worships.

I pray i do not have to reach another low moments to experience God like how i did, but i pray it will serve as a reminder to me that God is always there. despite what may happen, i must ask for forgiveness, forgive and turn our eyes upon Jesus and be Awed by His Almighty Presence. 

With only a short time away from the major exams, i pray i will not give up and try only my very best in studying and leave the rest to God. and not think about anything else but His lovely presence and grace :)

praying for all my friends around me too! hope they will understand my purpose for not replying their messages :p

Emmanuel, God With Us <3