Faithful Unto Death

Revelation 2:8-11
"Do not fear of those things which you are about to suffer... Be faithful until death, and i will give you the crown of life"

WOW. This verse speaks a lot to me. Even though I am not worthy of things in life. God still saves me, How COOL is that huh. Well yeah, that's my God and I wish to boast about  him throughout the whole of my life. Its is actually hard to be faithful until death, it may actually seem impossible but IT IS NOT. Why? Because of one simple reason, we have Jesus. But I am really not worthy of what He does for me you know. And i realize one thing that is really blocking me from drawing close to him and that is self-infatuation. I care so much about my outer look that sometimes I choose to forget what God has done for me by giving me all the pretty stuff on me. It is really not rightful of me to claim any credit for it but I am just thankful for it. Especially when i choose to chug my problem one side giving excuses that because I need to focus. I should deal with it shouldn't I? Give me strength Jesus to walk this path. No matter how painful it is to me right now, I know I will reap the benefits of it someday, and God approves of that. So help me O Lord, you know my hearts deepest desires. Forgive me because I really do not want to do this anymore. I need to learn how to treasure the relationship with you more than anything in my life. Don't let anything in life cloud my vision of you. You know it's difficult Jesus but I am weak and you are strong. Help me know I can utilize the power in me Lord that I may conquer all this in Your Mighty name! Amen~

Now on to talking about my week. Well, one word, AWESOME. Because I had Jesus with me! And i choose to feel so. I have not been especially close with God because of what is happening around me but it is all my own fault. I am sorry Jesus :( please forgive me. I have sinned and i want to sincerely repent. Take me back into your courts where all sing of your praises. But what is the best thing is that, during the papers. Although i do not know how to do a certain number of sums and questions, God helped me write what i needed in the very last minute. I started to write really fast and the information just came to me suddenly. Although I didn't get to check for careless mistakes, I am sure that it will be ok. I have received His blessings so much that i might overflow! So i need to spread this blessing Jesus. Help me to think of names that I should invite to this camp. That they will be ready to accept you when the time comes. Help me to be sure of that name and not because of my own desire to pull someone back to Christ. It would be futile if this is so. I need your power to show me clearly dear Lord to ask the person you want me to. Tug at my heartstrings and i will choose to pluck up my courage to do it. So back to the topic, i think God has been really good to me throughout this exams and I pray that i would be mindful of Him like how He sees me through all this. Thank you once again for everything and I wouldn't have it otherwise.

Lord i also want to dedicate this to Karishma. She has been really heartbroken because of the rejection. Well, i know it is because your plans for her are yet to come to pass. So keep her hopeful Jesus, that you may light her way to life. The one that she has been yearning for and that you may bless her with the comfort to walk through this journey with you. I pray that she will not feel so awkward in service when with him so that she will be able to seek you out :) Stay with her really as my heart goes out to her. I pray that her blessings will be double-portioned because she is really in need of it now! Thank you for always blessing her! I really love her and i know you love her more than 10 times!

I pray for Amanda as well that she will be able to know that you will be with her through the last papers and that She will walk with you till the end of it. Help her to keep her mind focused on you before anything starts. I know she has faith in you and feels greatly for you so keep her on her toes and let her soak in your Mighty presence always :)

I also pray for Elisheba that she will stay close to you throughout this period because You love her as she is and do not want her to stray form you O Lord. She is a really cute  and sweet girl so I pray you will be with her all the way throughout her life that she may stay true to herself and you always :)

I pray for Jacey also (although my heart feels weird saying this but) that she will be able to overcome her circumstances and praise your name like everyone does. She is having her own struggles and I have not been exactly encouraging but whatever it is. Help me to control my emotions and take her step of faith to help her out. Like i always say to put aside my feelings and Let God, yes i shall do so. Thank you for her presence and i pray that in due time we will be close to you as one like how we used to before. But i just thank you for the work you have done in me that you may continue till all jealousy is gone. I can do this because your love is greatest of them all.

Lastly, Neo Shu Qi. I pray for this girl that she will turn back to you God. And let her come to know that church should be her priority always. I pray that throughout this holidays that is to come that she will not go astray with the fun you blessed her with but turn her eyes upon you once again O Lord. Thank you for bringing her into my life and i pray that she will hold onto you tightly and be faithful till death.

Thank you for my blessing my friends as well!!!!!! Because of you I believe they felt peace and serenity because you calm their nerves unknowingly. But when the time has come I pray that you will guide them into your Presence whether is it through me or someone special in their lives. I pray you will rise up Christians to do their work foe you Glory O God. Thank you for all that you have done!
I really love you Jesus for doing so many good things in my life and may i be allowed to praise you to eternity because only seeking you is the greatest comfort i will get in life on Earth. Call me to do your work and may i be prepared to work it hard for you till the day i see you again, and let be be faithful unto death as i focus on what is unseen and not seen as what is seen is temporary but what is unseen is eternal! Amen~

Through the stress and strain of life

My tread of faith may break,

The cable of God's faithfulness

No one can ever shake

-Anon

Letters of Recommendation for Jesus

YOLO. It's a Sunday morning and here I am once again! Nerve wrecking 24 hours to the start of my very first A level paper! OOOOOOOOOOOOO freaking out here. But let's put that aside for a while and turn our eyes upon Jesus.

"Six-Word Testimony"
So this is what the daily bread is talking about today! Thinking that we have constantly portray an image of Christ-likeness so others can see Him through us. Personally, I feel I haven;t been able to entirely do that. But that is my goal! And I believe if I choose to do so, God will use my to show His love to others.

'If you had six words to represent what Christ has done for you and what you can do for others, what would I say?' Hmmm, I'll say,

 "WALK BY FAITH, NOT BY SIGHT"

2 Corinthians 5:7

Why? Because well, I feel that the sight has done us a lot of injustice regarding our actions and feelings towards what we see here and do around us. Well, firstly, sight has brought me to do the worst mistake in my life which caused me so much hurt and pain, yet by faith,, God healed me. Secondly, seeing Jacey in this state makes me angsty, but by faith, yet again, I choose to believe we have to love our sisters and not cause them to stumble in their tracks towards God. SO if we choose to really forgo our earthly influence and then towards God's will for us, I believe life will be a much better place because God is with us and in us! 

"Therefore we do not lose heart.

Though  outwardly we are wasting away,

yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day

So fix our eyes on not what is seen,

but on what is unseen.

For what is seen is temporary,

but what is unseen is eternal."

2 Corinthians 4:16-18

So let us be nothing but only righteous and truthful towards God :) only then we will experience the eternal He has already reserved for us, if only we choose to live and yearn Him like never before! Let's all be LETTERS OF RECOMMENDATION for our Jesus today! =)

So back to my frantic mood, TOMORROW IS THE DAY!!!!!!!!!!

NERVOUS MAX> But well, after talking to God, I feel more reassured :)

In a way i keep thinking others may not have done as much, I confess. Sorry God :(

But it's also not a time to think I am dumb and there's no hope. WELL NOOOOOO, In God, All Christians ALWAYS find endless hope yes? I always wished this time round would just be a miracle for me but I think if only fix my eyes on the prize i will never get to enjoy the journey spent! Especially when God has been present at all times through these times i am alone. But forever with God :) Thank you God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit for always being there for me! i appreciate your help very much and i look forward to spending more time with you throughout the month and week and i pray that every time i panic or feel awkward i will know that i am prepared, not going to let it stumble me and know that you are my rock of foundation and as long as i turn my eyes and focus towards you, NOTHING SHOULD BRING ME DOWN :)

I love you Jesus!!!!!! Forgive me of my sins and i pray you will be with me and help me have a clear mind to do the paper and write correct answers as  much as possible :)

'Only God's ways is the Right way to go~'

Forsaken? NOT A CHANCE :)

BOOYA.

So its officially 3 days before the start of my first paper, and boy, it is nerve wrecking!
So much to do within so little time. I just need the ultimate help :/
But having said that, I want to thank God for helping experience grace so free this 3 weeks of preparation. God is REALLY with me, I can sense and I want to choose to believe He is there for me!
YAYYYYYYY, GOD IS THE BEST <3

Well, and so i was reading my materials one day and i came across this title of,
"Who is the Holy Spirit?"- I mean like I thought I knew, She was just a spirit of God. And yeah, thats about it. But after reading the material I came to realize many things about her that makes me want to acknowledge her as a friend, just like God planned it to.

John 15:12-16
'I have much more to say to you, more than you can bear. But when he, The Spirit of truth, come, he will guide you into all truth. He will not speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come. He will glorify me because it is from me that he will receive what he will make known to you. All hat belongs to the Father is mine, That is why the Spirit will receive  from me what he will make known to you'

So Holy Spirit turns out to be friend of ours, Sent by our Daddy God to keep us company and guide our ways as we walk this journey on Earth. That's why we are never alone! because we have God, Jesus and the Holy spirit with us! I think what is most amazing is that living in this world is really a chore, but when we come to think about the things we can accomplish for God, its amazing  how the vision turns out to be. Well, I am starting to recognize that He can really show anybody things He want to. I just enjoy knowing He is there and all. really brings me comfort in time of stress like now.
So I just want to say THANK YOU HOLY SPIRIT!!! =) its like you have always been there for me, no matter how far I stray or how close I am. You are there. Sorry if I have hurt you in many ways unthinkable. But I promise, I will try my best to never do it again! Thank you for always guiding me in prayers and helping me in all ways possible, especially calming my nerves for now! Really thank  you! I just pray as the days past, we will grow close day by day and you can tell me more about Jesus and God and we can have little chats about what is happening in my life. Thank you that i can tell you everything so i have nothing to hide! I really love you as a friend and Thank God for you! Kudos to you!!

So throughout this week, i have been really really panicky about stuffs because i thought i would never be able to make it. so negativism starts to devour me. But then i talked to Asher! and told him,
"What if you reap what you sow, because i didn't study much, so i won't reap anything wouldn't I?"-THIS BY THE WAY MAKES PERFECT SENSE TO ME.

HOWEVER, Asher then said, "But you can think o fit this way, We sow seeds of sins EVERYDAY, so shouldn't we reap fruits of destruction and failure only??" Well then i would have been cursed and dead by now. *Pssssh
So what I am trying to say is, God's grace is so bountiful that even when you committed the worst of sins, when you repent, you can always turn back to Him with no qualms. How Amazing is our God huh. His grace is really more than enough, so i should just do my best and really really, leave it to God. Thank you for being there and giving me endless hope in Christ :)

So my prayer for this week is that I will fully trust in you that all will go well, because i have God and God only with me :)  Help me to lean again on you ad know that you are there!! JIAYOUUUUUU

'Though evil may surround us,

We need not fear defeat;

For when God fights the battle,

Our enemies retreat'

-Sper