One of those days where you don't get what you want

Heyyyyy. It's been long since i dropped by here. Well, it WAS supposed to be a daily basis thingy thill we patch up but, ohwells :p
So life went on smoothly till my promo results came out.
YOU TOTALLY PROMOTED :))) CONGRATULATIONS.
but the sad thing is, i didn;t make it.
I don't know why this  must happen to me.
But like, i know everything happens for a reason? So yeah. RETESTING :/

But all i know, i will do my best for it. I think i can do it with you.
Honestly, i don't trust myself in the least bit. But i trust you!
So if it gets out of hand you must control and stop me k? Or i'll ust fall backwards.
You're seriously the only reason why i choose to redo everything. Well, my parents also play a role but i guess they don't make much of a difference in my school life.
What would i do without you?!
So i must study hard, and WILL STUDY HARD because of you guys :)

We had a longggggg talk today.
Hope you poured everything pout like you wanted to? and really hope that is what byou really meant from the bottom of your heart. Because i can only see your true self if you choose to show it to me k?
And i know i always disappoint you, and admitting i may still disappoint you, i really hope i will learn.
But it's easier siad than done. And the time span you spare me is so little.
My dad says, 'slow and steady'- i believe so too. so maybe we should go slow?
hmmmm, and dont worry about them! They'll be just fine.
HELP ME KKKKK? i seriously need all the help i can get :0

THANK YOU SO MUCH for tolerating my nosnese. for appreciating me and also, doing every lil' bit for me.
BIG AND SMALL, i owe it al to you :)
so i hope i can be your source of motivation and hope too.
Sorry i didn't make it, but we must try our best now!!!

Dozing of alreaddy! GOODNIGHT :))

DAY 5- SOMETHING'S CHANGED :)

WELL EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED ACTUALLY.
Hmm, we are already talking. And it hasn't even been a month! Not even a week my dear!
But i was still wondering whether i can even last for 1 month. Phew~
Thanks for saving me. You can actually see what i was going through right :(
Its over anyway, just glad everything is fine now.

Although it's only for now, i know somehow it's too good to br true.
But i learn. Because good things don't last, but after every rain, there will be sunshine right?
HEH. So have i grown up? :p
NAH, i think i have not actually. But i'm learning.
And i really want to learn, but i hope i'm going the right way.

I know today i never really appreciate you. Cause i was preoccupied with my friends!
And so we made sushi! :)
I know you want it too, but next time we m ake together k?
Nicer nicer! Because if i give you tomorrow, sure become rock :p
Then we had quite a lot of fun.
But not those super super fun one.
Guess i have more fun with you :)

So tomorrow i got training! But hope i can do some stuff tomorrow!
And tomorrow have presentation :/
But don't need to go school early la! Maybe i will make pancakes and eat! :)
kk, cannot! Must slim down :p
I have not bathed though :( Lazyyyyy.

And HOW CAN YOU EAT SO MUCH AND SLEEP?!?!?!
HOW MANY TIMES I SAY YOU CAN'T DO THAT ALREADY.
NAGGY THEN LISTEN OKAY.
Will worry one eh :((
I WILL SERIOUSLY IGNORE YOU OKAY.
LIKE SERIOUSLY.
Yeah right ://
How could i bear to.
LISTEN TO ME K??? PLEASEEEEEEEEE.
HAIYAA.

Okay, so now i hope it can stay this way.
I really wanted to see you today!
As in felt the urge, but must resist.
But i miss you too k! :p
Hopefully you do too! :)
Now i feel much more lively and happier. Or can i say, blessed :)
Thanks for lvoing me too. <33

kkk, time to watch tv! X-FACTOR!!!
TATATATA~

DAY 4- Hmmm, Nothing much changed.

Today was equally horrible.
It just doesn't feel right without you.

Hmmm, but the whole day was fine.
Went to school late but made it in time. Totally panicking over my oral presentation. :/
Then just slacked the whole day and went for training.
Training wasn't fun, it was something more like occupying? Erm, like takes my mind of stuffs.
Then we just plaed and trained and as usual. I headed home.
but the journey home was what really hit me.
Urgh. Seriously feelit mans. I don't know, just don;t feel very good.
But i knid of occupied my whole week with stuff so yeah. Or else, i'll just go crazy sitting nowhere doing nothing.

Well, tomorrow calls for a celebration!!
Yan ting, Shirley, Hui Xian and Hui Fang is going to come my house and MAKE SUSHI. YAYY :))
Cause i kind of neglected them in the long run. So, here is kind of payback time :p
But like, we decided to celebrate shirley's b'day together too! A REALLY EARLY ONE :)
Hope it'll be fun for all of us! Taking pictires as memoir also!

Oh and yesterday i actually saw the polaroid and soooooo wanted to buy it.
But it's so expensive and mummy's going to kill me if she ever finds out.
Always complain i spend so much money, but i know cause she just wants me to save for rainy days.
OHWELLS. but those stuff were super cool! Can keep pictures as memories. Just blabbering :p

So how is today again?
Lived it well? Or not?
Hope you are having a good time with your PW mates and your CLass friends. Especially that 2 cheeky ones :p
Mmmmm, you just texted me. But i don't really expect anything. But this long distance thing is hardship.
One of the 'Hardest" ship i ever sailed. Okayy, i"m starting to be lame.
Hmm, i wonder what i should reply. You'll find out>

But just so you know, i"ve seriously been thinking of you wherever i go.
Can't really get you out so i don;t konw...
You too?? Maybei could make your life better by avoiding and hiding at one corner. Or at least getting out of our head? But will it really help?
GOSH. THIS IS INSANE.
kkk, the post should end here.
Outpour of misery and lost hope only.
Geez.

So i'll see you soon?
I mean it's only day 4.
And i still have 24 more to go.
Just great.
I WILL SURVIVE! :))

Till we meet again.

Day 3- Feels SO LONG

It feels even longer today. Exhausted. Feels so empty too.
Mmmm, i just watched 2 movies with Nelle.
1. Real Steel
2. In Time
VERY NICE. But it only keeps me occupied for a while.
Feels like i slacked a lot and it's stressing!
PW and results also coming out already. Ok, maybe i'm just trying to occupy my mind with thoughts.
But, IT SERIOUSLY FEELS SO LONG. And guess what, its only day 3. Boohoo :(

BUT, how are you again today?
Oh i forgot to tell you, i missd school today because i didn't wake up on time!
Supposed to go to school myself, but couldn't wake up. OOPS!
You didn't have training today right? Mmm, so i wonder what you did.
Hmm, seriously don't know what you'll do when you're not with me.
Sleep? Noooo. Cook? Douut so.
HEE, anyway. The movie was quite nice! i know i was supposed to watch In Time with you, but my sis reallly wanted to watch it. Sorry :p
Oh Oh! You know the cookies is nice! But i have a lot then don't know who to give to.

AHHHH. Not sure what to write already. I'll be livelier tomorrow okay?
SORRY :/

BYEBYE~