All lost. This week has been really empty.
Not in a way that you think, but i lost motivation to continue in things i have started out.
But i haven been receiving a lot of love from everybody around me after they knew about my situation.
But hey, I jolly well know I'm only running and hiding.
How long can i exactly do that.
It hurts to see you even that i don't even dare to face you any longer.
So is this really the end of us?
This whole week i haven;t been thinking well and much but i'm getting really tired.
My dearest ah kim has already embarked on her journey to salvage this marriage, but me?
Still in some space that i feel so lost.
Really really wondering what will happen to me.
Will i lose you this time, for real?
You see, i never had the courage to speak up but now.
I guess i have to let it go.
It's been really nice having you and my family together. I sincerely hope you will build a home of your own.
Your perfect wife-to-be and family to come will be something you create and uphold.
I hope you take care of yourself too because your habits will take a toll on you if you continue!
You wouldn't want to see your children live without a Daddy right? I'm sure you don't.
I'll be moving on, but you have to ok?
I think you'll do just fine without me because you're a strong person who loves deeply.
Worthy or not of your love, I'm not one to say.
But i guess, my time spent with you taught me a lot of things that i can never acquire from anywhere.
We had our ups and downs but hey, it made us grow into each other isn't it?
I know it'll be hard for you too, but I'm guessing we'll never meet or see each other again because you are those sort right.
However, i won't go anywhere.
Because whenever you need help, i'll still be here to lend you those listening ears and teaching you God's words if i have the chance to. It may be slim, but i'll keep hoping.
Just want to say sorry to your family for not being able to be a part of your family.
Make it whole with all your love and let it flourish once again in the hands of the Maker, The Heavenly Father.
Abide in him as He abide in you.
Once again, it's really nice to meet you and share all those joyful moments with you!
You've been a really sweet guy but i guess we were not meant to be.
I loved you for who you are and i hope you did too!
You'll always be that angel in my heart :)
And sincerely, for the very last time.
I LOVE YOU JEFFREY TOONG <3
Goodbye my precious one.
